Holy Crap!

It was so good to get away and see good friends this weekend. I needed it. It didn't hit me till that I was on my first flight, how stressed out and negative the last three weeks have been. I was a mess. I hasn't been sleeping, stopped working out, and my eating was erratic. Sometimes I'd eat, sometimes I was too tired, sometimes I ate junk, and sometimes I ate way too much. I had let my job consume me and steal my joy. I left work angry, frustrated, stressed and I didn't let go of that when I walked out the door. I'm sure if you're reading this, I've told you stories already.

Sitting on that flight, I realized that I couldn't live like this. I can't let someone or situation have power over me like that. I can't be angry, tired, miserable, and stressed all the time....I'm killing myself. 

I know how I got here. I forgot my priorities and let the healthy habits slip. And it honestly all starts with sleep. I bought a body bugg (yup the one used on biggest loser) and the most shocking thing I've learned in the last two weeks is how erratic my sleep is! One night will be 4.5 hours, most are in the 6 hr range, and then I completely crash by Sunday. What's more, the body bugg calculates your sleep efficiency.....I averaged 60%.

So I sleep like crap, wake up tired, my brain lasts till about 3pm, I've had headaches, my workouts suck because I never fully recover from the last one, and I have so much tension in my body that it aches. Then when the weekend comes, I want to sleep and lay on the couch, which means I don't actually enjoy the weekend doing something fun or I go have fun and don't do chores and set myself back because I didn't prepare for the week ahead. Cue another week of scrambling. 

What I have learned: 

1. I need 7-8 hours of sleep daily (mind and body recovery time)

2. Sundays are sacred prep days (nothing else gets planned on Sunday)

3. I need to leave work at work (think positive thoughts)

4. I NEED TO EXERCISE daily (stress relief)

5. I need daily accountability to my goals (doing what I said I'd do)