I'm having one of those days. Friday I was tired so I just took Molly for a long walk. My plan was getting in bed early so I could hit it hard this weekend. Guess what? I woke up still exhausted. So I took Molly to daycare and went shopping. I personally love shopping by myself. It's nice to just wander around in my own thoughts and not have to accommodate anyone. I got some great sales. My iPad mini was 15% off, I got 4 nike sports bras were 50% off, and a crock pot that's was 20% off. All things that can help me in my fitness journey. (It's easier to blog on an iPad! :P)
Then I kinda got down on myself. I am loving the colors and styles I see for spring, however I refuse to buy any more clothes at this size. It's frustrating to spend money and know that it's not going to fit in a few months. Plus thinking about shorts makes me want to do a couple hundred squats. And bathing suits? The thought of spandex makes me cringe. I don't like being this size at all and I'm not sure how to come to terms with that. I'm afraid that I'll get complacent and just get stuck here. And it's not just that I don't like it, I know it's not healthy. Today, it feels like I have so far to go. And realistically, I do. So after walking around and feeling sorry for myself, I just realized I was in a mood and mentally exhausted.
So I treated myself to Starbucks and did my meal planning for the week. My positivity is coming back along with excitement to test some new recipes.
Other positives to note. I have not had fast food in 2 weeks! In the last two weeks, I have been active every day and 11 of those days are actual workouts.
Tonight I'm doing yoga and tomorrow is working out with Vic. I'm on the right track lifestyle-wise, so that's good enough for now. The perfectionist in me just needs to take a back seat and I'm finally starting to recognize that. Results will come. If not, I know great people to ask for advice!
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