Starting with the basics

It's back to the drawing board and getting back to the habits I know work. 5am this morning was brutal. I actually slept in till 6, then dragged myself out of bed. I was angry for having to be up and that carried over into my attempt to run. Molly was pulling all over and my frustration grew with how shitty running made me feel. I stopped after a block because I realized I was yelling at my poor dog. It's not easy to run with a dog. You have to pay attention and can't zone out. They mess up your stride. And I was so frustrated about how much fitness I've lost. So we walked, which was still good for me.

My health is suffering. I realized it today as I had a pounding headache at 2pm and it got so bad, I thought I was going to throw up. It didn't go away till I had a piece of birthday cake and someone made the comment about low blood sugar. Great. I'm giving myself diabetes. (I hope not)

When I got home, I fed the dog and pulled out one of my beginner weight lifting books. I did a circuit workout out of that and felt pretty good about it. It irkes me to be back in the "beginner" book, but I think that's part of my problem, I go too hard and don't stick to it. So I'm making small commitments. I can feel the workout, but I know I won't be too sore to workout again. 

After that, I went to the dog park and walked around while Molly played. The only thing I can proudly say is that I have been keeping up with our corporate challenge and getting in 10,000 steps daily. It's crazy to realize that with how much I sit at a desk, it's impossible to get all these steps in without a morning walk, workout, and dog park in the evening. I don't let myself leave the dog park till I'm close to 10,000. Today wasn't bad, but yesterday I ended up running in circles for about 20 mins because I was a couch potato. Ahh well, still got it in. 

Tomorrow is a new day and another attempt at 5am. Uggggh.